Herald of The Warp
Join Date: May 2013
Location: Odense, Denmark
So last night my girlfriend through 4 years, whom I have been living with for a year, and I broke up.
Long story short, she has several mental problems that we have been battling with for the better part of 2 years. We started out living roughly 200 kms apart and moved in together last summer, for her to get a new start and for her to get some helpt to move forward. After a year in my hometown, she still hasn't made any progress and has not made any friends or the like. In essence she has given up and just accepted that she is ill, instead of working on a workable solution.
This caused me to give up on us as a relationship. I told her that I couldn't be in a relationship with one who accepted her illness the way she does and stopped fighting. That I could not (being one who committed suicide when I was a teenager and fought my way to where I am now, with a high-end job, a band on tour, a house that I paid for myself and my hobbies as a 30 year-old) accept her just resigning to this state for the rest of her life. That it went against every fiber of my being to just give up on trying to get a better life.
I told her that she needed someone who understood her better and that could support her the way she needed - And that I wasn't that person. That I would always put higher demands on her that she would be able to achieve, and thus, I would end up breaking her apart. I couldn't do that to her and because of that I had to let her go - Otherwise I would end up being the one thing that I ever wanted to be; A bad source of energy in her life.
It ended up with me being by her side all day and night, keeping her from harming herself, while having to stay strong and accepting that currently I'm ripping her life apart. She is getting picked up by her parents in about an hour, and I can hear her crying in the next room. I'm staying strong, but goddamn, this takes its toll.
At least I know it's for the better - Both for her and for me in the long run. Even if it doesn't seem like it right now.
Last edited by Nordicus; 05-18-15 at 08:31 AM.