Honestly I am not even angry at those guys she banged, they are just guys. I would still beat the bloody pulp out of them though.
And while I try not to prolong my pain, my brain is being an ass to me, keeps coming up with this shit thoughts and all random possibilities of what and how she did it. Ruined porn for me....
I know its not my fault, i know I should just go and hook up with some chick but its not that easy. I was thinking of marrying that girl in the future and future just spat in my face. The time I spent in Chinese prison was easier than emotions I am dealing with right now.
But I am dealing anyways.
I'm going out to meet this Italian girl tmr for drinks, I doubt anything will happen though but I hope it will.
I will go to the Airport though I will listen to her story, I will tell her mine, I will say my good bye and leave her for good and have my closure.